Pieces of me…

Just a bit of writing I’ve done lately….Bits and pieces of me.

I wrote this when I was in the midst of disappointment in my life recently. I think it’s important to know that even the joy-filled individuals have down times…

I’m a little bit down…A lot maybe – I can’t be for sure…This is a path I don’t often travel.

A part of me has changed – A shift has occurred. 

That hopeful dreamer has quieted herself…She just decided to shut her mouth – Keeping it open has become humiliating and exhausting.

I wonder if this is the way things will stay…No, it can’t.

I’m going to choose not to expect perfection out of myself.

I want to learn from this lesson while I’m going through it…Not after.

It’s like I’m piecing together a puzzle. Up close I can’t quite make it out…I have a feeling if I step back it will all be clear.

You’re giving me the pieces I need, Lord…One at a time.

One day I’ll see the whole picture – It may not look like the one on the box I’m putting it together next to…

But it will be complete.

Until then, I’ll keep working on this puzzle called my life…

I’ll start with the corners and the walls…Working on one scenery at a time.

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I am a puzzle – God’s work of art…Only He sees me complete. 

Some days I think I’ve discovered a key piece on this journey – an important corner piece…

Other days I’m certain that someone has taken off with a few finishing cut outs…

I am nobody special, save for Your presence in me…

I have no wisdom, save for Your Word hidden in my heart…

I’m just trying…trying to be better…

Trying to understand Your will…

Trying to love more… to judge less.

I may be missing a few key pieces…And at times I may not recognize me…

But there is One that can fill in those empty spaces…

Only God can make me whole…Only He can make me complete.

He is high above – viewing the whole picture that is my life…He sees the pieces moving together…He works with me and fits them together perfectly.